Decided to jot down a list of the Sonic fanfiction that I'm planning on writing sometime in the near future. Some of the ideas I had weren't ones that I felt inspired enough to flesh out into a full story, but I narrowed it down to four ideas that I felt comfortable with, and look forward to getting around to.

Most of these are off the wall transformation fics that more or less throw canon out the window, however, the yuri fic I mentioned recently will hopefully be a bit closer to the games, even if it'll still be me being a little weird.

So, anyways, here's what I've got:

Thief in the Night: Implied shoujo-ai. Rouge sneaks into a chamber in the middle of the night to steal the Sol Emeralds, Blaze walks in, and well, hilarity ensues, basically. Mainly focused on creating an awkward situation for the characters, than developing things to my liking.

Hubris: A fic about the evil alternate Archie comics version of Amy, named "Rosy the Rascal" as a retro reference. An anon requested that I make a fic about Rosy turning Scourge(The evil version of Sonic) into a woman. Thus, I came up with a story idea in which Rosy uses magic to take Scourge down a peg and more or less make Scourge into her personal maid.

The Mind is Its Own Place: More Rosy wackiness. Rosy breaks into a human guy's dorm and goes on a killing rampage with her hammer. After the dude stops freaking out, she convinces him to let her make him into a copy of her. Despite the description, I'm not planning on including much explicit violence in this one.

Genius Rewarded: Another strange transformation/transgender fic, this time centered around Tails. I tried to come up with the basic concept of "Tails is changed from a cute boy to an elegant and powerful woman." So I figured I'd have the SNK mascotGreek goddess of wisdom, Athena, visit Tails and bestow a "gift" upon him for his intelligence and heroism. This would take place before he meets Sonic, so thus I'd be setting up an odd scene where Sonic winds up having this fox woman as his partner. Actually, the more I thought about it, the more the idea seemed to turn into "Alternate timeline where Tails is a badass version of Elise by the time of Sonic 2."

Oookay, so there's been quite a bit of back and forth about whether or not NiGHTS well be in the new Sega crossover racing game, or whether or not there will be "console exclusive" third party characters in the same way that Soul Calibur 2 and 4 had them.

This is actually oddly nostalgic for me in a way. I remember that back at the end of 2007, there were tons of rumors as to what the roster for Super Smash Bros. Brawl would eventually be like. I really didn't expect this sort of thing to happen for this game, but at least it keeps people talking about the game.

This time, I'm a lot calmer about things. Partly because I've matured somewhat since two years ago, but also because, based on what I've heard about it so far, I already know I'll like this game, whatever the character line-up is ultimately like when it comes out. There's nothing it can do to majorly disappoint me.

I wonder if Mikuru of "The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya" puts up with Haruhi's abuse because:

A) She's just that devoted to her job as a time cop or whatever

B) She's got some sort of homosexual submission/cosplay fetish

C) All of the above.

Hey all, Blaze here again. Just a placeholder til I get done answering all the comments that Racewing graciously left me.^_~ Then I'll edit this post to include something a bit more meaty.:3

Edit: Mmmkay, finally got around to editing this thing.

Anyways, as the title of the entry implies, I'm thinking of writing a story about Rouge and Blaze(Well, in addition to the four or five Sonic related ideas I have on the backburner).

Basically it's both sort of a campy implied yuri thing, and a bit of a brief character study. Rouge tries to steal from Blaze, they get into a brief fight, Blaze wins, they both have an awkward conversation. It's a bit more complicated than that, but anything more at this point would be overly detailed, or at least I'd currently think so.

I wanted to try something that, while still having a tinge of strangeness of and wish-fulfillment to it, tried to stick closer to canon than the strange(But rather fun.:3) Tails and Amy fics I'd previously written.

I'm not sure what audience this would appeal to, if anyone. But I figure it would be bad form for me to tell anyone "Don't like, don't read." On the one hand, if I base what I write completely on what others tell me they'd like to see, I'm no longer in a position where I'm writing what I enjoy writing. But on the other hand, if I don't listen to criticism, I won't ever improve. I've written some awful stuff in my time, but part of the key to moving beyond that is being open to other opinions, instead of letting my ideas exist in a vacuum.

Planning on hopefully posting a more substantial entry tomorrow. For right now, I'm wondering whether the "fused eyeballs" that Sega hedgehogs have was intentional, or an artistic mistake that just stuck.

I'll admit, I don't feel comfortable going back to the Blaze icons right now. I feel that Amy is a good motivator for me, reminding me to not take myself so seriously, and yet at the same time to remain hopefully of what I could be.

That being said, I feel like I'm gradually getting better at exploring what being Blaze the Cat means to me. As strange as it seems to me to be saying it, I feel like I'd like to be a more spiritually disciplined person if it becomes reasonable for me to do so, someday. Even if it's not necessarily in this life. Like, someone who has few if any material attachments, and who has achieved enough peace for myself that I can sacrifice for others, expecting no reward...and actually view that as being fun in and of itself, rather than viewing it as some obligation that's been forced on me. Like, I'd be already happy, so I could freely give that happiness to everyone else.

I guess I might not be making too much sense, but it's kind of fun to let those kinds of thoughts out.

I recently reached a point where I realized I wasn't a Sonic fan anymore, and was just pretending to be one.

To be more clear...Back in 2005, I still thought of the Sonic series as being as popular and respected as Mario. Sure, the Dreamcast had unexpectedly kicked the bucket, and now Sega was a third party developer, but I had no reason to think of Nintendo's old rival as being a laughing stock.

And to be honest, at the time I was very excited for Shadow's new game. I loved the character in Sonic Adventure 2, and at the time, assumed that most people shared my feelings.

Then the game came out and it was a massive critical failure.

This was my first encounter with the cultural meme of "New Sonic the Hedgehog games are all rubbish." While I resisted at first, eventually I wound up assimilating into what I thought of as the majority. I slowly began to believe that anything Sonic that was released from 1999 onward was irredeemable garbage and that everything should go back to being the way it was in the 90s.

Well, this just got worse and worse. Eventually, I was only picking out a few characters and ideas that I deemed enjoyable, while shunning all the rest. The fact that the chosen few things I liked about the Sonic franchise kept changing did not help anything.

In time, I got fed with the whole franchise and every character in it, up to and including Sonic himself. He was no longer a character to me, just a marketing gimmick. A Mountain Dew commercial on legs.

So...yeah. It took a while before I fully realized what I was doing to myself, but I'm glad I did get to the point where I could say "Wait...how did I get here?"

It's amazing when you've been stuck in a negative, harmful pattern for so long, that you forget why you ended up that way in the first place.

I'm not saying that disliking New Sonic is harmful to everyone. Most of the time it's just a matter of taste. But it wasn't me. I first started liking Sonic because it made me more open-minded, because it made me realize that games that weren't Nintendo weren't necessarily bad. Thus, my becoming increasingly close-minded about the series was counter-productive to the original spirit in which I originally became a fan.

Furthermore, I've rekindled my fascination with the character of Sonic himself. I've realized that while making him somewhat egotistical and self-absorbed has always been a part of his character, he has never, in any major continuity, been portrayed as heartless. And, well, to be honest, the character allows me an outlet for my feelings, both positive and negative. He's someone I can feel angry at and yet sympathize with at the same time, and, because he's not a real person, I can do it with my mind at ease.

Ooookay. Time for more explaining.

I got this message on an earlier entry from an anon:

I realise that I'm just an anonymous observer, but I would honestly rather see a journal by you, not by the different pieces. You seem like a really nice person, and I really don't think you need to default back to fictional counterparts to be interesting.

Now, naturally, since this was an anonymous post, I have no way knowing whether this person was expressing sincere sentiments. But the advice still rang true to me on some level.

Three months ago, I hit kind of a brick wall. I had the face the difficult truth that I wasn't as enlightened as I thought I was, and begun to fear that I was a completely self-absorbed sociopath.

I've had a lot of time to try and figure myself out. I've had some success. It's hard to say exactly what I've learned about myself, but I figure that the fact that I'm not sure how to verbalize it yet is a good sign. It makes me feel less pretentious, less "fluffy bunny" about the way I view my beliefs and world vies.

So, my point is, when I read that message, I found that I actually did believe I'm a really nice person. At least deep down. I've still got a lot of nastiness on the surface, but at least now I know that it's not the core of who I am.

I figured it was time that I stop splintering my personality so much, thus confusing myself and others.

I mean, I'm still an otherkin. I still believe that I'm an incarnation of Blaze the Cat and like four other characters. And I'm still going to keep the "Blazey Bakeneko" name since I basically made it into my main net handle over a period of time.

But I don't my personality to begin and end at "being an otherkin" anymore. I've switched to Amy Rose icons, but that doesn't mean I believe I'm Amy Rose.

I used to use Umi from Magic Knight Rayearth as a way of physically representing the way I felt inside. But I've changed a lot over time.

So, while I don't believe I'm Amy, I do feel that she's a good role model for me, and that she represents a lot of the positive progress that I've made, and the kind of person that I hope to be. She represents my tomboyish side, my feminine side, my gaming side, my furry side, my spiritual side, and furry side. And most importantly, she represents a balance between loving myself and loving other people.

I guess this whole post may come across as being silly...But I feel like I should get used to embracing silliness. I've always had a bit of a comedian in me. And I've spent too much time trying to be "cool" instead just trying to be "me."

Inspired somewhat by the meme, I'm going to make this post where, if it suits your fancy, you can me almost anything.

I say "almost" since I figure I should still make sure I avoid Too Much Information territory for my own sake and everyone else's, but don't be afraid to ask something that may seem too personal. It may in actually be quite harmless.

Leave me a comment o' randomness; your favourite quote, the best sandwich in the world, a good song lyric, what colour pants you're wearing and I'll respond with five questions you can answer in your own LJ leaving with them an open invitation for other people to give you comments o' randomness. Then you can ask them questions and before you know it we'll all know everything about everyone - even if we've never met!

From flyboy_fox

1.If you could pick any age to be eternally stuck at, what age would you choose?

I'd be a permanent thirteen year old. Just old enough to feel like a teenager, just young enough to still feel like a child.

2. What non-Sonic fandoms are you currently most into right now?

Super Mario Bros., Pokemon, Sparkster/Rocket Knight Adventures, and Megaman. Mario's great because it goes out of its way to be as weird as possible, and though I've known about the series most of my life, and I loved it in my childhood, I hadn't truly rekindled my love for it until about relatively recently(Partly because I went through a phase as a teenager where I needed things to be "dark and edgy" to be cool. Really ironic since most of the stuff I enjoy these days is lighthearted). I used to get pretty annoyed at the way Pokemon never really changes much over the years, but I now see that lack of change as a strength...It makes it feel more like a home of sorts, to me. I recently got interested in Sparkster again due to the announcement of a new game in the series...Turns out it's similar to Sonic, both in terms of plot and gameplay, but has its own unique flavor as well. I've gradually become more and more interested in Megaman since Megaman 9 came out, but what really got me into it again was the announcement of Zero appearing in the upcoming international version of "Tatsunoko vs. Capcom."

3. Why are you suddenly a fox now (or rather, why is Ren a fox)?

Brace yourselves, this will be long.XD

Everything I've ever seen from or heard about house cats suggests that they're not as trusting as domesticated dogs.

To the best of my knowledge, a dog doesn't ask much from you, while a cat will. Dogs seem naturally predisposed to give people unconditional love upon receiving a bare minimum of kindness.

While I've met cats who were incredibly friendly and begged for attention from everyone, my general impression is that this is not the norm, and that cats generally act very distrustful or at least indifferent, of humans when not given a certain level of care. Apparently one has give special attention to a feline before he/she will understand how much one cares about it, and then reciprocate the feelings.

So, on some level, it's kinda symbolic of me trying to relax and take the proverbial stick out of my butt, but it's a bit more complex than that at the same time.

For the longest time, I've identified as a cat, and somewhat disdained behaviors that would seem "dog" like. What that means in a nutshell is that I've tended to think following my head is better than following my heart.

I've found that an excess of either winds up hurting me in the end. While I don't know much about foxes, I do know that they are known to be unusually cat-like despite being in the dog family. Identifying as a fox for me means opening up with my feelings more, while at the same time trying to keep a cool, reasonable head about things.

It's also something of a rediscovery of my own boyhood. When I hit puberty, I became pathological afraid of men, partly because I began to understand what a "male dominated world" was, and what things like rape and spousal abuse were. I also began to start repressing homosexual feelings because of this.

I wasn't like that as a child. The idea of men being scary just because they were men was almost unknown to me and rather silly. Even though I felt like I wanted to be a girl even then, being a boy still seemed like something special. I had a lot of fictional male heroes when I was little, and the character of Tails was the character who seemed embody the joys of being a young boy the most.

So, I went and got some images from the Archie Sonic comic to represent the "boy side" I was trying to embrace. Even though the actual personality of Skye doesn't fit who I am(Believe me, it was hard finding facial expressions that weren't variations of the sad puppy face), I was able to find images that fit the way the "little boy" side of me feels. I want to be like my old hero Tails, but at the same time I realize I still need to be me. So the images I chose for my journal wound up showing what's essentially a slightly off model Tails, to be symbolic of the way I'm trying to live up to an ideal, yet trying to be realistic at the same time.

4. What's your most favourite food?

Cheddar Cheese. I've always liked all cheese since I was a kid, but that particular kind has the kind of special sharp "bite" to it that makes me want to gorge myself on it(Even though that would probably be a dumb thing to actually do.XD)

5. Do you believe in any sort of end-of-the-line 'afterlife' (at the end of this life, or after however many reincarnations)?

Like almost anything spiritual that I believe, I'm not sure of the validity of this, but somehow I feel like all souls were one soul at one time, and that suffering is in part caused by that split. My vision of a "final afterlife" is one where "All are one" in some degree. Where everyone is one person yet many at the same time, if that makes any sense.

I figure that one would enter into this state after having lived enough lives to purge one's soul of all selfish attachments. Given my tremendous ego, I probably have quite a ways to go, but it's nice to at least be able to acknowledge my goal of becoming part of something larger than myself.

I figured I'd explain the little changes I'd made to my journal. Cutting this so my wall of text doesn't stretch people's friends list.

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Remember a couple months ago when I was acting like a jerk? And then I posted that silly "Am I a douche-bag" thing?

I wanted to thank you all for not telling me what I want to hear. Because real friends don't tell you that you're great all the time.

I especially realized that when "Johnny" turned out to be a troll in disguise. I should have known something was up when she kept trying too hard to be friendly.

I don't want to be deluded...I don't want to believe I'm better than I really am. Because it's lonely at the "top." I have no interest in becoming a sociopath.

I've had to accept some hard things about myself. But I feel that I'm the better for it. I hope in time I can find the "nirvana" I'm looking for, and then share it with others.

I remember hearing about Earth Eternal, a free to play anthro animal MMO, a long time ago, but I'd figured the project had gone under after I hadn't heard anything about it.

Turns out it's being beta tested right now. Looking forward to when it finally goes live.

I'm rather bored with Archie Sonic for the moment. It's not something I'm likely to ever completely quit caring about as it was a big part of my childhood, but it just seems too slow, dull and pointless at the present time.

In light of that, I've taken a larger interest in Fleetway. From what I've read of it and the information I've found online, the "darkness" of it was greatly exaggerated. There are dark elements, to be sure, and a major protagonist was killed off at the end of its run, but, like the SatAM cartoon, it's my personal feeling that its supposed status as a "dark, brooding epic" is largely misleading.

I'd say that Fleetway's greatest advantage over Archie is that the continuity is more finite. Of course, this is partially due to it being canceled around the time the Sonic Adventure games came out...if it had gone on longer, it may have still turned into the jumbled mess Archie is now.

But at any rate, while the status quo changed from time to time, Fleetway wasn't big on having tons of plot points that were introduced, and then either took forever to be expanded upon or were never heard from again. It was basically the "Episodic Action" Sonic comic...For the most part the stories seemed to be "Hero fights villain, villain is stopped, hero goes home."

Sonic the Comic Online, the fan continuation, looks pretty awful from what I've seen of it, though. I mean, don't get me wrong, the art is beautiful, and I admire the dedication the people working on it have to be creating the thing with no pay at all. But I don't personally care for the writing...It reminds me too much of everything that went wrong with Archie after Endgame. It feels like a badly written soap opera. There appears to be a larger focus on the characters' growing psychological problems than on action and heroism. There are still lighthearted stories, but they seem to be the exception rather than the norm.

Still, it's a free fan work, and, if nothing else, I can enjoy it for the pretty pictures, and the "So Bad It's Good" factor.

I couldn't really think of anything worthwhile to post today, but somehow felt compelled to post anyway.

Perhaps being at a loss for words more often these days may be a sign I'm growing more genuine, as opposed to my "Oh my god THIS IS THE BEST SPIRITUAL EPIPHANY I'VE EVER HAD IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!" period where I was more bark than bite.

...Or more meow than bite...

...Well, awful joking aside, you get the idea.

From reading other peoples' journals, I've found out that the Zero that was announced for the game is indeed the Megaman X version of Zero.

So now I'm totally satisfied with the roster for this game. It feels great and a little strange to be able to say that about a crossover fighter again, after TMNT Smash Up, and, to a lesser extent, Brawl.